I never
really imagined that a name could have so much meaning. Walking
along the Vietnam
Veteran’s Memorial I was faced with thousands of
names belonging to thousands of people who had each given
their lives for our country. I stood there, surrounded by
spectators, all quiet in respect and honor, but the personal
meaning didn’t reach any deeper than the engraved letters
on the wall. To me they were just labels, not the true souls
that they represented. I had never known the soldiers who
had lost their lives; I hadn’t even been alive to experience
the war.
I
slowly made my way deeper into the list, passing flowers
and small gifts left in remembrance. I saw a wreath left
by Boy Scout Troop #471, and a letter left by a
little girl for her "grampa." For some reason it surprised
me that people would come to the memorial to pay their respects
to their loved ones. Wasn’t this just a place for
tourists to come take pictures of a very historical monument?
Besides, they were, after all,just names.
Soon
I began to become tired of the repetitive carvings in stone.
Row after row, it became harder and harder for me to imagine
that each identity listed had a true character and personality.
I began to walk on the less crowded side of the path that
was farther away from the wall. After snapping a few pictures
with my disposable camera, I thought I had experienced the
essence of the memorial.
Then
I saw something that made my heart fall silent and my feet
freeze in their place. There, standing in front of Section
34 on the right half of the wall, was a woman. Her royal
blue outfit and white gloves highlighted her dark chocolate
skin, making her stand out from the crowd as it rushed past
her. It was as if she were in a completely different world,
surrounded by nothing except her thoughts. I watched as
she reached her gentle hand up and lightly touched the wall
in front of her. Slowly, she traced her fingers over the
name "Frederick Holeburg.*"
She stroked it with such softness and purity, it was as
if she had never felt anything more precious in her life.
Closing her eyes, she took a breath, and I could see her
imagine him standing there in front of her. She didn’t
move, as if afraid to lose her husband all over again Her
breathing became so deep and relaxed, she seemed to be in
a state of complete solitude. I tried not to make any noise,
even though I knew she wouldn’t notice. I didn’t
want to disturb what seemed to be such a placid and tranquil
moment.
By
looking at the way she held her hand against the stone,
I felt I could see back into the many years they spent in
each other’s arms. I could see her smiling at him
and touching his face; not just his name. I saw them taking
long walks and falling more in love with each other every
minute they were together. I could see him holding her hand
as long as he could as he had to leave to go and fight in
the war. I could see her sitting at home, barely being able
to sit still, as she waited to hear news of him. I could
see her crying when she found out he had died.
Then,
as if she had suddenly awoken from her dream, a tear quickly
ran down her cheek. She opened her eyes and looked at the
name of the one who had meant more than anything else in
the world to her. She began to cry as she leaned her head
against the wall. "I love you," she said. "I will
always love you."
With
that she stood up and wiped her eyes. She pressed her lips
against her hand, making sure that her kiss would be felt,
and then she touched her husband’s name one last time.
Slowly her arm retreated down to her side, and after standing
in peace for a minute, she reached into her purse and pulled
something out. She placed it on the ground, glanced at the
wall once more, and slowly turned and walked away.
I
moved closer towards Fred Holeburg’s name. Beneath
me I saw a white rose with a maroon red bow tied around
it. Next to it lay a white card with calligraphy writing.
I leaned over to read what had been written;
"In
honor of the best husband, chef, and friend I have ever
met: I love you, Fred."
I
smiled as a tear rolled down the side of my face. I never
guessed that a complete stranger could have such an effect
on me without even knowing. In those twenty minutes I learned
more about life and about myself than I could have ever
aspired to learn in months. I learned what it means to truly
love someone. I discovered that some people are cherished
so much in life and death that the sight of their name can
cause great emotion in those they have touched.
Fred
Holeburg had made an impact that went deeper than the engraved
letters of his name. Fred Holeburg affected the fate of
his country; Fred Holeburg affected the soul of his wife;
and unintentionally, Fred Holeburg affected my heart. To
me he was no longer just a name on the side of the wall.
Even though I had never met him, I knew he was a hero, and
that he deserved so much more recognition than he received,
as did the other thousands of names that stood in front
of me. Looking around, I no longer saw thousands of words;
I saw thousands of brothers, grandparents, husbands and
sons. I saw inspiring people who each had been adored by
their loved ones. Only then did I realize the essence of
the Vietnam
Memorial. It is not a name that needs to be remembered,
it is a person.
I
then quickly began frantically reading the names on the
wall, trying not to miss one of the remarkable soldiers
that undoubtedly deserved so much more than just a glance.
I wanted to understand and learn about each man who had
lost his life, but then I became aware of the amazing magnitude
of the memorial.
As
it was time to leave, I thought of the countless soldiers’
names that I did not even have time to read, let alone get
to know. Even though I couldn’t get to know each soldier
in the war, my eyes had been opened to a new world of perspective.
I
walked away from the wall, the names growing smaller with
every step I took. Finally they were no longer visible,
and I said good-bye to the names I had read, and the heroes
I had respected.
*
Name used is fictional.